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I just wanted to say im definitley thinkin of you!!:) I miss you everyday!! I know your havin a blast in heaven!

Put in a good word for me!! Your something special, God will listen;)

Jessi

Jessica,

it is so hard to write this, for so long i tried to pretend that this never happened.  i should have stayed closer, i regret that when i saw you last i didn’t talk to you much… too busy with my own thoughts…

some of my greatest memories are when i would come back from college in Portland and the first thing i would do is visit you.  sometimes you were so happy and others you were so, well, pissed.  mostly at my cousin…he had your heart. 

i drive by the new sign every day… i can’t help but cry or smile or laugh out loud when i remember some of the funny things you did…  you were the one who taught me how to do my makeup.  you sat next to me in choir and made funny jokes with me…james, need i say more. 

jess, i miss you dearly

love, Bethany

Yesterday the “don’t drink and drive” sign was unveiled.  At the bottom was yours and Krissy’s name and it was so surreal.  I signed the back of it but  I just don’t know how I feel about the sign.  I feel confused sometimes when I think of the day you left us.  You are with our loving God and I am so envious.  I wonder if you can see us.  What’s it like baby girl?  No day can go by without a thought of you in it.  I yearn for your hugs and hearing your laugh.

soooo much!! its not even funny!

i cant help but be selfish and want you back!

there is so much i would tell you

Happy birthday sweetie!  One year ago exactly we were out painting the town in your honor!  It was a night I’ll remember forever!!!

Hey all,

I realize that this site has somewhat fallen off the radar lately I’m sorry for that. Rob has asked me to get the announcement out for a dinner at the Heathman Lodge in Vancouver, next to the mall, on February 22nd. Its going to be an awesome night and I personally am planning to go. I know of at least 5 other people. We want to sell out guys, get everyone you know. All the proceeds of this evening of fun goes into a scholarship fund that will help local youth in many, many ways. Lets do it for Jess and Krissy!

Cheers all.

Here’s some more info on the night. Print these and hand them out! jessicascholarhip.pdf

It’s been nearly a year, and I haven’t really written anything to you online. Your family has been in my prayers every night for some time now, and I think of you often. You were such a good and loyal friend to my beloved Krissy, and I am so glad that over the time the three of us spent time together we became friends too. I remember vividly all the good and bad times, from spending time together at my place and playing board games, to going with the Shaddix’s to the car show last year, to my last birthday when you came fashionably late at The Old Spaghetti Factory.

But the other reason I wanted to write was because you were in my dream last night. I had never seen you in my dreams before, until last night. I’m not sure what the purpose was, other than the obvious which is to let me know you are around as well, but it was so good to see you! The dream was that I was living in some two-story house I couldn’t recognize, and there came a knock at the door. I answered it and it was you and you were beautiful as ever. Apparently you came over because we had planned a night to get together to play board games or something. You seemed so happy, so vibrant, and it was weird because I felt like everything was normal. We were about to play something, but I had to go upstairs for something, and all through the night, I had one excuse after another for excusing myself to go upstairs to do something or find something, whatever. Unfortunatly, we never got to play any games, but you seemed understanding and still very happy as you left the house.

Still not sure what it all meant, but again when I woke up and remembered the dream, it was a nice surprise. Thank you for visiting me and letting me know you really are with us. You and Krissy take care of each other and keep smiling upon us.

 ~Charlie

Mom and Dad i do not mean to dissapoint or anger you in anyway, but this is just how I feel. I love you.

Dear Jessica,            You haven’t been off my mind for more than a few seconds in a day lately. I have come to realize that I need you more than I thought. In English we were talking about the one person you could go to for everything, and I noticed, that was you. Now that you’re gone I have no one. Mom and dad don’t understand me, and think I need help, the worse part is, if they didn’t see my myspace, they wouldn’t have even noticed how sad I have been lately. They have always just been concerned about Sarah, leaving me in the dark. I feel that it is too late. I can’t tell them how I honestly feel. It was you that I told everything too. My emotions have changed with the weather, and the closer it gets to Christmas, the harder it is for me. You know that it’s my favorite time of year, but I can’t imagine spending it without you.
Hawaii won’t be the same without you on my 16^th birthday, but if you can, in any way, please come to me and sing me happy birthday like you always have. And please, Jessica, please hold my hand when I get my tattoo. I don’t know how I’m going to get it done without you there. I’m getting your dream tattoo, the one you always wanted, In memory of you. Daddy told me in heaven, time does not exist. That would mean that all of us are with you right now. It’s very hard for me to soak in and grasp because I don’t feel like I’m with you at all, and if that were true, you wouldn’t even read this letter, or hear my cries. So writing this would be pointless… But I hope to God that my dad is wrong and you hear me jess, because you, you are the only one I can truly talk to besides God. It has been so long, yet it feels like yesterday. People say that they have dreamed of you, and have seen you in their dreams. I consider that a privilege, one that I have not yet gotten. I wish I could just see you, hear you, laugh with you, cry with you, and hold you one more time, but I can’t. I have become so cold inside Jake. It’s like all the warmth and joy left with you and went to a better place. Dang, if I had the choice I would get out of here too. Despite all the beauty and love in the world there is so much hatred, darkness, and depression. I think most of us are blinded by it. I bet heaven is breath taking. I try to hide my pain inside from everyone. It always seems like they don’t care, so I save my breath, and don’t waste a word. I think I have gotten so used to it that I barely speak at all and hide it all away behind a mask a constantly ware. If they only knew what I was truly like, and how I really feel. But they don’t care. I live in a world where everyone is so self centered, what was I thinking??? I went to our cousin Nick’s wedding last month, and the only thing I could think of was, what will I do without you? So many times I think about dying and seeing you waiting for me at the gates with open arms and Jesus by your side holding me tightly. I cannot wait for that moment, although, I am not one to commit suicide. What will that do for me? I wouldn’t see you anyways… and then I would suffer even more in hell. No, I will wait for my dying day, no matter how far it is away or how close it may be, I will die when God says it is time for me to come home and I will willingly leave this earth. It’s just so hard jess, living in a world without you in it. It feels so unbalanced and no were near the same. I wish I could have said goodbye, and actually talked to you that night. I want to take back falling asleep in your car. I remember you saying “Fine don’t talk to me” in a jokingly manner and I simply just said “I’m tired leave me alone.” If I would have just known jess, I would take every second back and tell you everything. Its killing me slowly knowing that you didn’t want to go that night, if only you waited till the next day or night, you would still be here, and I wouldn’t be such a mess. If only I didn’t let you leave! You looked so pretty that night, I will never forget, and I am however thankful I got to spend time with you that night before you left to get Krissy. I will never forget you two, no matter what. I hope I never disappointed you. If you saw me now you would probably be disappointed, and I’m sorry for that. I quit volleyball jess, it was hard for me to do it, but I had to. I love you so much! I wish you never had to leave. Why so soon? I will never understand… You are the air that I breathe and without you, I’m suffocating. 

I never had the chance to say goodbye, so here it is: 

This may sound cliché, but I love you with all my heart and words could not describe how much you meant to me. You are my strength, my weakness, my light, my darkness, my mother, my sister, my best friend, my life. Always and forever, Goodbye Jessica Hannah Blanck. 

I will forever carry on your legacy. 

Infinite x’s and o’sYour little sister “BOO-BOO-KACHOO”  

P.S. If You read this, please learn from this. You NEVER EVER think something like this will happen to you, but when you least expect it, it will, and it will slowly kill you, as it has already begun to do to me. I have seen and heard so many deaths related to drugs/alcohol in my life, I hope to never hear or encounter one again, so please, be responsible and mature. DON’T DRINK AND DRIVE 

Thank you.

   Oh Jessica, I just found out that you are not of this world any longer.  Your Mom just told me.  I only met you once, when your family came to pick up their little kitten, Emma, that they adopted.  You, your Mom and Your Dad, all came for the big event.  You were all so excited to have Emma meet Moses, your kitty.  I can’t believe that this has happened to you and your family.

Blessings. Leslie

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well its been six full months and the pain of losing you has not changed! i guess it never will. i hurt so much for your mom, dad, and sisters. i cant imagine the pain they are going through. i wish i could take it all away from them. i cant help but be selfish and pray for you back, not only for me but for everyone. i miss you and didnt realize how much you meant to me till all of this. heaven is lucky to have you girl. i love you and miss you soo much.

love jess!